Tuesday, April 7, 2009
hey people,
i am currently feeling very sad now..
but there is nobody comforting me,
trying to make me feel better..
basically today was alright,
except that the soccer match was postponed due to the weather.
since the lightning risk turned on,
there wasn't even one lightning or thunder..
then the lightning risk stopped just for the next match to start.
however, as it came to the later part of the day,
things didn't go the way i wanted..
i know i made you sad for not turning up at the library,
but i have my reasons for doing so also..
you told me not to go because my leg is injured
you also told me not to go because it was already very late.
i didn't expect you to wait until it closed,
i didn't expect you to wait for me..
and when i didn't message you,
i was actually waiting for your message..
i am not saying all of this to push the blame to you,
but i just want to explain things to you.
i know that usually i will go find you no matter what.
but i thought that if i go there just for 30 min before it closes then it makes no point.
and before i messaged you, i wasn't really watching tv yet,
i was just doing some exercise.
i just had the mood to do exercise today,
maybe i like to do exercise when i feel down?
or maybe that my way of making me feel better?
i know that i had broke some promises that i made to you,
i know that i didn't keep some promises,
but do you think that i wanted to break those promises?
do you think it made me feel good by not keeping my promises?
i don't feel good breaking promises as well,
and sometimes i didn't mean to break those promises..
remember you claimed that you don't mean much to me?
maybe you said that because you were sad,
i just hope that you don't really feel that way.
i am really tying to make as much time for you as possible.
but sometimes when things get a bit busy,
i cannot do anything about it..
anyway, i am really sorry.
sorry for making you sad everytime..
;
7:14 AM
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